Hey there,

I'm alive. Its been a long time, I know. But the important thing is I'm here. So here is what has happened in the past two months!

Winter formal was wonderful! We had a great time! They did alot of community dances, which I thought were really fun. Stephen looked very nice. The car looked really great!lol (love the TA just because you can) So that whole night was just a ton of fun all around!

Christmas was great. Stephen went out of town to Oklahoma on the 22 (my b-day) and was done till the 27, so that was no fun. We did something really cool with our gifts, we had a "material" gift and a "sentimental" gift to one another. I got him cologne and painted him a picture of us. He got me a scrapbook kit and all these things he has been saving since we met and a bailey, banks, and BIDDLE pink peral necklaceand making bracelet! (the whole Biddle thing is because thats been my nickname that my Daddy has called me for like 8 years. He is Diddle and I'm Biddle! Not that you care) I love them they are so beautiful. From Santa I got lots of lovely gifts but one of my favorite was a Wilkins cake decorating kit and my folks signed me up for lesson at hobby lobby! (I went yesterday, it as fun!) I really enjoyed having my brother and his wife there at my Grandmas with us. I really enjoyed the time with all of my family.

I'm 18 now.

lol just kidding! Well I am 18 now but I'll tell you about my Birthday! I had an ice skating party! All of my family and Stephen were there. I had a blast! I can't skate, but Stephen could and he kidda pulled me around! lol He was so sweet. For example, lol when he would start to fall he would like drop my hand and lean right so I would fall too. I thought it was cute! Well there was one time I didnt think it so cute....He like smacked the ice and I looked back you know saying my "Oh no are you okays" and at that time I saw his head bounce off the ice and this white thing fly across the floor! I was like "Oh no oh no his teeth!!!" lol It was his chapstick. He got the biggest kick out of that.

So basically New Years was uneventful. I spent it at my Grandmother's. Shut up, dont laugh. (like my Mother did!) Stephen came over and we just watched movies and talked. It was nice. Very slow pace! But nice.

Finally Stephen got back in town yesterday from going to get my granit from Kentucky. He polished it and all off that stuff...it took him alomost 9 hours to do! It looks amazing. You can actually see yourself in it! I cant wait to put it in my kitchen at church!

Okay I'm done you can all leave now! Thank you come again!

Currently Listening Days Go By: Anthology By Keith Urban see related

- youll think of me

Hey,

Its been a hot minute since I've done this! But I'm sure ya'll know that, I could file harassment chargers on most of you! Well not too too much has happened but nevertherless some stuff has so lets get down to it.

First show was last weekend, it was super super cold and no fun! But I made good money so no complaints.

Being "Mama goodies",as I am fondly called courtesy of the Blackman high football team, is going well. I enjoy helping feed them every Friday before they run out and get their butts handed to them, repeatedly. Despite the fact that they suck I love spending time with all of them. Surely their inadequacies are no refelction upon me.

I am loving being a leader at church! The kids are great fun and they all seem to respect me. Oh and the Fire Pit is going so well now that I have help! Thanks Phillip and Katie, you two are remarkable people and it is a pleasure working with yens! By the way I'm painting and putting up dry wall all by my lonesome tomorrow if anyone wants to help!

And what you all really came here for......Stephen. Yeah we are dating. Have been for um.......well since the begining parts of September......yeah cause he came over for Mom Birthday. Things are going fine....slow.....but fine! lol I met his family last night and they were a lot of fun. Super friendly and laid back. I played my first game of Foose Ball!! I suck but I had help... Allen- "I'm afriad to lose cause I know Stephens not scared to win.".  Stephen gets major points cause he can rub feet hardcore! You know that thing where you run the tips of your fingers over the top of someones foot!!! OH my stars that drvies me crazy! ummm Anyways, this weekend Haunted house and pumpkin patch!!!! mmmmmm! Precious! I'm so excited!

Bellbuckle this Sunday! Oh so excited! I still cant get anyone to go with me though! It is fun I swear!

Currently Listening Come Fly With Me By Frank Sinatra see related

As if I have no time.

I was in a country music video last night! lol I never caught the name of the group but they really were good. I was one of like 12 dancers and I did the electric slide for like 4 hours straight....haha. It was actually really funny. I met a few people. I actually went with a guy I met two years ago at New Years. He is the reason I was in the video in the first place! He was exactly what I remembered, well actually he has facial hair now and that really bothers me but hey who am I too care! He just looked alot better without it thats all. lol I thought I had forgotten how to flirt until I met Jordan. umm Yeah he used to live in Israel, speaks fluent hebrew.....yeah. Big brown eyes, brown hair, big lips.....my stars. Then it all came back to me. Now granted he lives in Hartville, so all thw while I was thinking to myself  "I know nothing would ever happen but I just want to know if I still have it.". So I was like just see if he would even be interested. Wow, I still got it baby! All I did was talk to him, and he was like stuck to me from then on! He never did anything inappropriate by any means he was just really touchy feely. Like he would come up behind me and put his hands on my waist or rub my arm just to kindda let me know he was there I guess. It was nice. He told me that I talked with my eyes and when I smiled the whole room filled with light. Well at the time it didnt sound corny at all. His eyes even got teary! lol He wasnt too mucho to say the least. But he was gorgeous. I guess it was just nice to know I was special again. Oh and Stephen. lol Lets not forget him. The guy I met on New Years. He is really sweet but alittle more drawn back, almost like he is scared of me. He did say that I was absolutely beautiful and graceful, and that I should be told that everyday. I ahvent met anyone that grabbed me like Chris did, and come to think of it I may never again. But thats all water under the bridge, not by choice. I am enjoying being wanted and treated special! lol I know I'm a dork! I'll stop I just wanted to tell you guys whats going on in my life. Chris told me I needed to "just let go" cause he said I was holding on to him, but can he blame me? It felt like I was hanging off a ledge by nothing but a hand, he walked up and stepped on my fingers. So I'm trying, its hard but I'm trying! Pray for me you guys. God Bless you! Isaiah 51:12-16.

Britt  

 "Fly me to the moon, let me play among the stars. Lets me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars. In other words, hold my hand, in other words, baby kiss me.(even if you know you shouldnt.) Feel my heart with song and let me sing forever more, you are all I long for all I worship and adore. In other words please be true, in others words......I.....love.....you."

.....your heart didnt sing that long baby.

Hi again.

Its been like three days. lol But here I am again. I want to say a few things in regards to the last post.

Chris is a great person. I may have came down too hard and even if I didnt I should NOT have gone that far on here. I know the only people that read my site are close friends but still I would like to clarify a few things. So here goes!

Chris, again, is a great person! Awesome personality, extremely intelligent, kind, give you the shirt off his back and just an all around good hearted fella. Oh and if I've said this once I've said it a million times, he is one of the most truly genuine people I've ever known. He is not a bad guy. He has his issues but my lord who doesnt. I just wish he veiwed me alittle different. I would say that he dumped things on me because he knew I would understand and when it came to choosing between letting me down and someone else he chose me normally casue I would strug it off like it was okay. And I'm glad he thought of me as being so understanding but, dont take advantage of me because I'm that way. And he was kindda set in his ways. Like swimming and church, he didnt want to do them so he didnt. He just forgot how many "dates" we went on where I would set and watch him play pool for an hour and a half with one of his friends. I didnt mind to do it but I sure as heck didnt want to. But I love him and I loved to see him happy, so he came before me in the sense. I want the same thing from him. I am through with all the crap I have everything in the open and nothing to hide anymore. Too much drama that needed to stop. Too much insecurity on my part and I know I drove him up the wall, oh my heavens with the "does that mean you dont want to be with me." oh my stars I read too much into things! lol No more of that. I need time to get my crap together too. Maybe in the future him and I can get back together....like 6 months from when all the crap started. So that would put us in December. Um that may work. I just gotta see where I am and where he is then. Just got to see. Christmas is a great time for love. lol He may hate tradition but he knows he had a great Christmas with me last year. It was beautiful. He is so cute when he sleeps! Thats it, you guys can leave! lol thanks for your time! Love you all!

Britt

              " Just shut your mouth, how can you say I go about things the wrong way. I'm                           human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does."

Who same this great song? Tell me tell me. This song is a difinite shut out to my/someone elses (who knows) boy.